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Wednesday, June 25, 2008 @ 12:17 PM
GUILTY AND MORE GUILTY I really don't know whats wrong with me. I woke up having a little fever and my head weighs a thousand tons and then damn shit thing was that i vomit on the floor near my bed. I had to clear up the mess myself because no one was at home, and again i could hear the tick tick sound of my clock. I was feeling blur and msg-ing xueying but i really wondered if i am dreaming or it really happen. I had a nightmare last night, freaking scary and seems so real to me. Someone was after my life and i kept running and looking for people to help me. I guess i been pondering too much on certain things. But then since i am also involved in the start of this game, i guess it would be normal for me to feel guilty. Also i think i am too mischief, because i can't stand it when people starts to gossip so i agree to play this game. My idea is if you want to play with me i play with you till the end. But i wont be the one losing out. So much things... but thanks ML anyway. She's understanding and also i know i can trust her. But as what she say leave some gap so there are some things which left unspoken is better. Also really want to say sorry because i think its my fault that he is being unreasonable. And that cause so much hurt to ml.. really sorry. guess i'm tired, feeling soggy... going for a rest ~~~~~ seriously i enjoy the process of it thats why till now i remain unmoved not wanting to cause the fullstop to everyone's enjoyment. But it seems that things are not getting any better. If worst come to worst i dont have a choice, i would still do according to the initial task that i am suppose to do. Blame me all you want. Been lying on my bed thinking the whole day, I tried to msg ah fa but no reply. I could not think of other good ways to solve the problems. I don't know what i should do next. I guess i just have to see how it goes. I'm prepare for the worst. mabel just scribbled
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