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Saturday, August 9, 2008 @ 3:49 AM
HAppy national DAE Happy NAtional Day!!! Yesterday 080808... i always thought that when this day comes it would be a memorable one. But i think it turn out to be one super really unlucky and not an auspicious day. Whatever it is, i think i don't need others to judge who i am. As long as i believe i am not that kind of person and as long as people around me are willing to believe thats enough. But sometimes, its difficult. Indeed i think next time round i wont be so easily to believe again. There is no such nice fairytale, no nice stories, no nice characters. All are just wearing a mask, beautiful mask hiding their ugly face. When things goes wrong, they on the other hand accuse others of being da bian zhi or liar. Seriously no one has even told me off like this, and that person has no rights to say me when he himself is not that perfect. Ya, say i am selfish, say i am immature, say i heartless, say i lame, say i liar, say i da pian zhi or what, he should mo mo zi ji de liang xin. Is it fair to me? kind of tired of all this... but then got another bad thinking. Suddenly urge day dreaming of struggling someone. I wonder how would the person feel. When i am thinking about it, it kind of feel so real and i can feel the person trembling and struggling. That kind of feeling is like... indescribable... Perhaps i been having too much nightmares... don't know when all this nightmare going to leave me and stop harassing me. Happy NAtional day. No national day parade for me. I been wanting to get the tickets but still always not been able to get so. Almost thought that i going to short of 32bucks but luckily in the end it was miscalculation i think. I thought i short of 32 bucks so i went to withdraw it from atm and in the end closing got extra 32 so should be miscalculate. ARGH don't know what i am doing also. going crazy soon. When iris ask me some qns i also don't know the ans coz i never ever think of it. But i thought that the reason why coz its a no ans qns. mabel just scribbled
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